Dear Readers
I know its been awhile since my last message. But I have been very very sick. I have Cerebral palsy (CP) and had to go for emergency surgery. I have an implanted pump that relaxes my mucles and the pump was infected.
They tried Intravenous Anti-Biotics first and it didn't work. So, they had to take the pump out so I have been going through medication withdrawal. During this time I have been battling other things which I won't mention.
I asked God why has he abandoned me? When is this all going to end and also I just found out today that my fiance is back in the hospital because she has an infection due to wounds on her back and other places on her body.
I've received a few messages from the Lord during this dark time. He said I want you to unite your suffering with mine...that was from Jesus. Than I received a message from God the Father that I am suffering for the conversion of sinners here in the United States.
But its still hard for me to see the big picture (to offer suffering) as its hard when your going through so much. So, please pray that I can offer up my suffering without complaining and for asking why?
