Thoughts...
I have not written in awhile because I have been receiving messages more frequently. I'm trying to write down as many as I can, I've been doing better since Lent ended. I feel more intimate with Jesus Christ and more detached from this world. I want to be with God and the Blessed Mother constantly.
I've been upset because a few years ago God showed me Heaven, and I never wanted to come back. To me there's nothing here compared to Heaven. When I went there I did not have a negative thought, but now that I'm back, I see the world getting worse in its
behavior. Sometimes I wonder why God gave man a right to choose.
Jesus appeared to me and said, "Mankind abuses free will. "
When He said this, I did not understand at all.
I said to Jesus, "Why not just come back now?"
He responded, "I am coming as the King of Mercy first through the Holy Spirit, but when I return, mankind shall not have willpower. "
If somebody offends God, it offends me.
Sometimes I wish I didn't see things the way I do. I feel shut out from this world from time to time.
This week I called upon the Eternal Father and He said that I must remain here some time longer, and that He is using me to make it known to the world that His justice and love is one and the same. He said I shall plant many seeds and that through His Spirit He shall grow them. When all the trees are planted, than I shall go to Him.
He said that my death and suffering which I will endure are for the poor souls.
It is through the Rosary that I am able to stay here without going mad. WIthout Mary I wouldn't have gotten through the ordeals, which I have been through.
